Holding his head up

I am now able to face Jesse forward in my sling. It is very exciting becasue that means he has better neck control. He also love this position because he can see everything. And let me tell you this kids likes to look at everything! He is so alert! He has trouble doing anything like eat or get his diaper changed because he is too busy looking around. Anyway don't have time now to write more than this but isn't he cute!

Fat Fat Fat

I'm fat. No no don't try to make me feel better cause it won't work...I am definitely fat. There is no cute bump where my baby was there is just this flabby saggy stretch marked skin that doesn't fit into any of my clothes. My maternity pants go up to my boobs and the tops make me look pregnant. Not to mention I would rather wear a sack than put them on again. My old clothes (prepregnancy), I should probably give them to good will cause my butt ain't getting in them...yes I said ain't. What the heck. I can't afford a whole new wardrobe. What am I supposed to do??? I bought some draw string skirts thinking I could mix an match but they have this elastic in them that pushes in to my flabby saggy tummy and it makes em look like I have extra rolls. But when there is no elastic it just looks like I am still 6 months pregnant. My shirts are too tight because I already had the worlds largest breasts but then I got milk...woohoo milk...and now they are a 40F...if you didn't know that is basically the biggest bra size ever on the shortest person ever...no it is not good no matter what Dan may think it is uncomfortable and annoying. AND not like they would ever make a nursing bra that actually supports the 3 tons it is holding. UH! Not to mention the super attractive back fat and bigger hips I have accumulated. So basically I wear my western t-shirt and my maternity denim capri's (that are too big) every day. Sometimes I wash them sometimes I don't . I knew my body would be different but when does it get not so freaking ugly??? Needless to say I am miserable in my skin...or fat if you will.

OK now that I have adequately ranted..here's my beautiful son. At least he's cute. He can lift his head up now and prop himself up on his arms. He won't do it all the time but he can do it. And yesterday he went from this position to his back! He can roll over. But he has only done it in his crib not on the floor. I think he uses the bounciness of the mattress to get himself going. I tried putting him on the floor today to roll over but he just started to cry. I can't believe how fast they grow! He can also keep his head upright when I am holding him up right. He coos and smiles at us when we smile at him. But he still has this clogged tear duct that is grossing me out. He gets this gross build up especially after he has been crying or after he wakes up from a nap. The doc said to massage it but it doesn't seem to be working. I am just sick of wiping his eye. That's all for now.

Storing PIctures

So I am wondering how you all out there backup your digital pictures? I now have about a million of Jesse saved on our hard drive but I am afraid if our computer crashes or something else happens I will loose all my pictures. And that is just unacceptable. I was wondering what other people with a million digital pictures do. I would appreciate some help on the subject. We have talked about putting them on a CD or DVD but then I have to keep making new ones every time I take new pictures...I want something more long lasting that will allow me to add pictures as I take them. Anyway here is a picture of Jesse with his "king of the jungle" outfit on....aren't the shorts too cute! They are too big...most of his stuff is still cause he is so long but not very chubby.

Shoes and Pants

Well it is official I have nothing to write about except my baby. He consumes my life and thus consumes my blog. Jesse is 7 weeks old now and is starting to smile and coo. It is the cutest thing ever! He like talks to us when we are changing his diaper. His neck is getting pretty sturdy and he is sleeping better through the night. Which is nice for us cause it means more sleep. I am feeling great. It still hard to go out with him by myself...always easier with an extra set of hand around. Breastfeeding is going much better, but still not the easiest thing in the world to do. I'm still not totally confident in my nursing skills. Frustrations....he has a clogged tear duct or something....it's super gross and goopy. Anyone have suggestions besides wiping with a warm cloth? It is really grossing me out and I am afraid it will get infected. But it seems just goopy for now. No redness in the whites of his eye...so that is good. All in all he is becoming a little person with his own personality and it is so cool to watch. I can finally tell he is getting bigger cause he hardly fits laying on my chest anymore! I am already getting sad that he is getting bigger. Now for what you really want...The pictures!


This is Jesse wearing his first pair of shoes! They are cute little blue sandals with embroidered bugs on the bottom. They have no function except to look cute on babies. They were a gift and they are so adorable.


Jesse wearing his first pair of pants...yeah his clothes are finally starting to fit! By the way, baby clothes sizing methods are very inaccurate. These pants are still a bit big and they are 0-3 months! I think part of it is because he is so long and lean. I swear most of his weight is in his head and belly!